Florida Pen Pals - New Friends in United States

I am looking for female friends that can hold a conversation and not just reply with one word. I am more inclined to reply to women who have decent grammar. I have received many messages without much thought put in them. I have given so much information to chat about. Just typing "hi how are you?" will lead me to believe that my profile was never read and most likely result in me deleting and ghosting messages.

I tend to be very wary and distrustful of others because of social anxiety but obviously self-aware of it. I am not easy to make friends with because of that flaw causing my loneliness. So, assertive women who are persistent would be the best to push through the flaw of my distrustfulness. At the same time i don't feel worthy of any kind of friendship, so of course i have a low self esteem making me conflicted about friendships. I might try to sabotage a potential conversation by doing something stupid. Such as ghosting or finding some flaw i see in that hypothetical woman as an excuse to quit chatting. If a woman doesn't like self deprecating humor we probably wont get along.

Sending outside contact information first thing is something I consider rude and potentially scammy. I would rather get to know a potential friend on here before contacting each other outside of this website. If a woman isn't willing to put up with the very limited private message system where you have to delete previous messages to continue a conversation then they wouldn't be able to put up with me. Also sending friend request without discussing it first is something i consider rude. Note such a request will be declined because we haven't actually become friends until we get to know each other.

Am looking for new friends and getting to know other people's culture