Fort Lauderdale Pen Pals - New Friends in United States

Just looking to chat, female only!!

Hello:
I'm looking for female pen pals who lives in the deep south or southwest. Please feel free to write anytime.
Thanks,
Cliff

call me leah I'm from los angeles just moved here July of 2003. I love to sing, I'm independent and I dont need anyone to make me feel good about myself or buy me nice things. I love to rock out and just hang loose. People with uptight attitudes just make me want to leave. I don't like to be told what to do or how I should live my life. I don't like it when people tell me that they are right and I'm wrong because I believe there's MORE than ONE way to do things. I tend to surprize most people when they get to know me.. I love music and art. Going on spontanious adventures. Dark bohemian hole-in-the-wall bars downtown.. I like to make my own fun, I never expect anything to happen and that's why it always does. I love to scarf good food, going to a stuff packed full party, going on adventures or just fucking around.

I HAVE ABSOLUTELY EXHAUSTED ALL MEANS OF MEETING A WOMAN WHO CAN GIVE M WHAT I WANT, WHICH IS TH TOTAL (EMOTIONAL) PACKAGE. LIKE WE ALL HAVE, I HAVE ALSO BEEN BURNED MANY TIMES IN THE PAST, WITH THE MOST RECENT ALSO THE MOST DEVASTATING. THIS PAST TIME HAS TAKEN SOMETHING FROM MI INNERMOST SOUL, SOMETHING THAT HELP CREATE "WHO" I WAS. I'M NOT QUITE SURE WHAT IT IS, I JUST KNOW THAT ITS GONE. AND WITH IT LEFT MY PASSION FOR LIFE , MY INSPIRATION TO GET OUT OF BED TODAY, MY....LUST. MY LUST FOR LIFE. EACH DAY I FEEL AS IF I AM JUT GOING THROUGH THE MOTIONS. I FEEL AS I'M PLAYING A PART IN SOMEONE ELSES PLAY THAT I HAVE KNOW CONTROL OVER.
I MISS WORKING HARD ALL DAY AND SNEAKING UP BEHIND(HER) WITH SOME FLOWERS I JUST PICKED,GLIDING UP BEHIND HER, WRAPPING MY ARMS AROUND HER WAIST FROM BEHIND, AND WHISPERING IN HERE EAR HOW VERY MUCH I LOVED HER AND HOW VERY MUCH I MISSED HER. AND THEN I WOULD PLEAD WITH HER TO SWIT DOWN AND RELAX AND LET ME FINISH DINNER. I HAVE NEVER LOVED ANYONE AS MUCH AS I LOVED HERE AND FEAR I NEVER WILL AGAIN. AFTER SIX YEARS OF LOVING HER COMPLETELY AND ACCEPTING HERE COMPLETELY, AND BEEN FATHER TO HER FOUR BOYS AND GIVING THEM EVERY PART OF ME: SHE CHEATED. SHE WANTED MORE. I HAD NEVER CHEATED OR EVEN LOOKED AT ANOTHER WOMAN INFRONT OF HER. SOMETHING DIED IN ME THAT DAY WE BROKE UP. IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY,I MOVED OUT WITH NOTHING BUT A FEW PICTURES OF OUR BOYS AND MY CLOTHES. I COULD HAVE LEFT HER WITH NOTHING SS EVERYTHING WAS MINE PRIOR TO US GETTING TOGETHER OR THINGS THAT I HAD AQUIRED DURING OUR RELATIONSHIP. BUT I COULDNT PUT HER AND HER BOYS OUT ON THE STREETS. SO I LEFT WITH MY CLOTHES AND MY DOG, LIVED OUT OF MY TRUCK FOR MONTHS AND NOW I FINALLY HAVE A ICE PLACE WITH NICE THINGS, ACCEPT FOR ONE.....LOVE. I FEAR THAT I WILL NEVER FIND A LOVE LIKE THAT AGAIN.MY HEART ACHES AND I STILL CRY.I FEEL MY TIME IS OVER